remember when a year ago felt like a really long time?

remember when running and singing and screaming was the only thing to fix the hurt?

do you remember when the pain was stronger than your pulse?

those nights you wanted to cut it away

sign away your life in deep crimson.

I can remember those days

the ones when I got hurt more than i could count

and every once in awhile i would be destroyed by liars

you promised to always be there

to never hurt me

I hope karma never forgets your name

because baby, you hurt me

bad.

remember the little white moth I saved?

I remember the time you flipped your truck

I never got to know you well enough

and it's pathetic

but I miss you

when we learned "my heart will go on" on the recorder

it meant a lot to me

but the marks on my arm spoke louder than any word that could ever come out of your mouth

you hurt me

you molested my hopes and dreams

and tore my porcelain future apart

do you remember me?

I can never forget you

your height

your eyes

the things your fingers told me

and the things mine did to recreate you

I lived in fear

always in fear

you broke it

the line that kept me tied to life

the life support from trust and honesty and good judgement

its never too late to say you're sorry

I called

I texted

I messaged

I met you in person

and to everyone I might have ever hurt, I told them I was sorry

and they either shrugged, or forgave me

and it was scary

but it is never

ever

too late

as long as you're heart is still beating, keep your lips moving

say what you mind wants you to

make love to the darkness

weep to the sun

and never forget to say you're sorry.