i cant really think straight

its just confusing

to be completely honest

because i know breaking it off is the right thing.

I adore you, I love everything about you

well, not everything

but you don't love everything about me

maybe we could rekindle the flames?

it would eventually end for better

or worse

and I cant loose you

i would rather let you go

I don't write about you like I used to

i don't know how to touch you

i could have just kept quiet and tried

but i didn't

why?

WHY

I don't want this to happen

but it has to

maturity has to win here

I can do this

for maturity

for all of the rash decisions i have ever made

I have to be strong and start now

what should I do?

should I clean?

shower?

eat?

turn into a pool of jello on the bed?

I could have kept this going

it wouldnt have lasted

better to end it now than keep it going

I can do this

this is right

what is wrong?

is touching his stuff wrong?

I have never had a break this clean

I feel the awkward bars

but they dont need to be there

this is best for both of us

maybe it will change?

i miss us already